The Final Countdown

Before you start reading this, scroll down so that the music starts. It will make you laugh!

I am so anxious to get through today. I cant believe how close Will is. I know he is a tough little man and is going to make it, one way or another. I wake up everyday thankful to be Will's Mom and glad he is MY little boy. I always new I wanted to be a Mom but I had no idea how much it changes you. Every aspect of my life is different now. Not just my daily routine but my whole outlook on life is different, its way BETTER! It is amazing to experience and I wouldn't change a thing over the past 5 months. The good, the bad, and the ugly have all made us what we are today, STRONG. We are much closer as a family and realize how lucky we are to be together. Not a day goes by that we aren't thankful to have Will here.

48 hours

We are anxiously awaiting the October 1st to finally get here. If Will makes it through the next 48 hours it will be the first month of his life WITHOUT any hospital stays. We are keeping are fingers crossed and hoping for the best.

I have been experiencing some not so fun dreams the past week and hope that they go away soon. I keep having the same dream, in one way or another, that Will is sick again and in the hospital. No matter how hard I try I cannot get to my little boy and be with him. I keep getting lost, confused, or distracted in some way or another. The elevator will not stop on floor 4 where Will is at and I cant find the stairs. Everyone I come in contact with goes out of their way to be mean and refuse to help me. I wake up sobbing every time and cry even thinking about them.

I am not sure why I keep having this dream and hope its not a sign of things to come. Maybe its to prepare me to be strong, or to remind me how blessed I am. I am not sure which one. But either way sleep is not looking so good lately.

One Small Correction

We got Will's birth certificate the other day in the mail and I just had to laugh. Our little Will was actually born at 6lbs 2oz. It's funny because right after Will was born Mike swore it was 6lbs 6oz and I thought I heard 6lbs 2oz. Stressed and worried we assumed it was 6lbs 6oz and went on with life. I know its such a small difference but it is crazy to think about especially now that Will is getting so big! In the pic he is in a Preemie diaper and its huge on him, now he is in a size 3 diaper! I am so thankful to have such a big healthy boy! He may be a tank now but he sure is a cutie!

Oprah's New Best Friend

I have exciting news! It looks like my sister-in-law Whitni is heading to the South Chicago Mission and Spanish speaking! We are so excited for all of the fun new experiences Whit is going to have and the impact she will have in her area. Whitni is such an amazing person and has a special way of touching every one's hearts. I know there is someone just waiting for her to help them change their life. Whitni has so many wonderful qualities about her that you can't help but adore her. She is the most loving and sincere person I have ever known and has a way of making everyone in her presence relax and be themselves. She is never judgemental, hurtful, or gossipy and I love all these things about her! Whitni is also the best at making conversation and handling those incredibly awkward social situations so she is well prepared for the mish.

Whitni leaves for the MTC on December 3rd and we will miss her so much. We will miss her amazing cooking, her amazing vegan cupcakes, her crafty expertise, her contagious laugh, and everything about her. Although we will miss her we are so excited for Whitni to share the gospel and grow in so many different ways. I am so glad its only for a year and a half though, I am going to miss my personal stylist most of all! I am happy to report that Whitni will NOT be a frumpy Sister Missionary! She will definitely add a little bit of personality to her area. We love you Whitni and are so proud of you and your choices in life that have lead you to this next phase of your life. You are going to do great!

CHUNKO!

We cannot believe how much Will is growing! I am really starting to wonder were our little baby went. At our final lab draw yesterday the Nurse said, "Oh what a cutie! How old is he? A year?" Okay seriously he is getting big but not that big crazy lady. As annoying as it is, I am so thankful for such a strong and big boy we have on our hands. He is so tough and I would much rather have a big healthy boy to keep me busy! Labs went good and Will's white count is FINALLY in the normal range. That means his body has bounced back from all the med's and sickness and he should be done with hospitals and labs for a while. Will also had his hearing rechecked yesterday and we are happy to report he passed! So everything appears to be normal and on track. We are so excited to have things be "normal" again.


Will is changing so fast and its hard for me to keep up! He still hates tummy time but is now rolling over and is discovering how fun it is to stand (with our help) and check out everything. He has been on solids now for 3 weeks (don't worry our Doc said its okay :) and boy can the little guy eat! He loves butternut squash, banana's, and avocado's but isn't a big fan of carrots or surprisingly rice cereal. I spend most of my day trying to entertain Will as he has inherited Mike's A.D.D. It is so funny the things I come up with. Will's latest fav is lying under the bunk bed and looking up at the 80's retro mattress. Its awesome! It keeps Will busy for a whole 15 minutes! Will has also started teething. He started pretty much the day after his PICC was removed. Crazy but true. He is doing pretty good so far though, what a tough little guy! I am so glad things appear to be over and we can finally move on with "normal" life. I still am kind of living in fear but am hopeful Will is done. Seriously how much more can the little guy go though. He is such a stud and makes me laugh every day. I love being a Mom and am so in love with my little boy!

Little Will

Here is a video I put together of some of my favorite pics of Will from the last 4 months. It is crazy when we stop and think about everything he has been through so far in his short life. I hope this helps capture some of our emotions throughout all Will's struggles. Be sure you stop our music at the bottom left of our blog before you start the video.

Don't Jinx It

So I am NOT going to repeat my same mistake as last time and say how healthy little Will is. We had our follow up with Infectious Disease yesterday and they said everything is looking good! They want to redo labs in a few weeks to make sure his white count continues to go up (just a precaution) and also suggest we have Will's hearing rechecked. Not only is there a possibility of fluid build up from all the meds and fluids he has been given so far in his short little life, but also the one antibiotic's (Gentamicin) can cause long term hearing problems. We are staying optimistic though and just happy to have William............you know the thing I cant say right now :) They removed the PICC line and this makes both Will and Mom very happy. Finally (after waiting 24 hours after removal) Will gets to have normal baths again! He is such a tough little guy and I am amazed every day at his determination to get better. If your curious like me about what exactly a PICC line is I took a pic to show everyone. It is really amazing to see what it is exactly and I am so grateful for the advancements in medicine today. I am also posting the video of the PICC removal. This time when we left Primary's we made sure to have a little talk with Will and asked him to wait a while before heading back to flirt with the nurses. Hopefully he listens this time! The past 4 months have flown by and Will is getting so big. I am wondering where my little baby boy went!